It's times like these when I miss you the most. When I'm so close to breaking down, when my chest is about to explode from all the mountains of grief it's carrying around, when I need to talk, but can't seem to find anyone to talk to, when I want to stop pretending to be strong and careless- cuz the truth is, I'm not. I'm as vulnerable and weak as any helpless prey, with pain and sorrow as my predators. It's times like these when I miss your soothing voice, your guiding words and your loving whispers, the most. No one gets me the way you do- not even my closest friends. I know they try to, but they can't. I love them and I'm sure they love me too, but I also know that they don't know how to deal with me. They see me as complex, dark and damaged. And maybe they're right, maybe it's true, but you embraced me and let me into your heart just the way I am. I can't talk about this with them. Not that they wouldn't want to listen- don't get me wrong, I know that they're always here for me no matter what and will always be there for me no matter what, but I also know that it hurts them to see me this way, I know that they feel utterly helpless. You see, it's exactly at times like these that I miss you the most, cuz after "luring" me into talking, I know that you would want to hear me out no matter how big or small my problem is, if there was one in the first place. You would listen to my stupid rant all day long if you had to, all day long cuz all that matters to you is the end result- me feeling better. It's times like these that I miss you the most, cuz not only can I not talk about this with them, but the truth is, 99% of the time, I can't talk, period. And they need me to spill so they could figure me out just a little at least, whereas you understood me just by gazing into my eyes. It's times like these that I miss you the most, cuz I'm losing my balance, staggering throughout my walk, falling every now and then, and I need you there to help me back up. I need my solid rock, the one I could always lean on. I need you. I miss you. I love you.
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Sorry everyone, but today wasn't really one of my best days. Actually, it was anything but one of my best days. So if you find this post to be too sad or depressing, I'm sorry but it's exactly how I feel at the moment. I love you all. Thank you for tolerating xx
16 comments:
Don't apologize for the way you feel.. you're a beautiful person.. and I hope that writing this helped you..
If you need anything pleeeeease tell me, I'm a good listener ;)
I love you wayed wayed wayed :**
it sort of did.. what to do.. el 7mdilla 3ala kil 7aal.. thank u SO much my love walla.. ur such a sweethearts and this means so much to me.. i love you more more more ;**
ba3ad galby ;**
thats was beautiful =(
im always here bella ;**
7ayati inty il beautiful ;* thank u so much walla.. matga9reen.. 7abeebi intay ;*
hey, if anyone understands this it'd be me.. remember i'm as dark and gloomy..
u know I really mean it when I say I love you.. and you know i'm here for you.. my emotional Flower.. ;)
Mashalla you're very eloquent with your words, that was so poignantly beautiful :(
Sorry you're feeling so down bas we're all here if you need to talk it out, or write it out I guess! heart you, hope you feel better soon hun;*
Change: I knew you would understand.. we're one in this hehe.. i know u mean it and i know that U know that i love u too.. 7ayati inty walla matga9reeen.. hehehe.. ur emotional flower is withering =(
Lilo: 7abeeeeebiiii!! ur comments manage to draw a smile on my face every time i read them, 7adich u flatter me walla *blush mn galb* I heart heart heart you! thank u walla.. ur kind words are greatly appreciated mn 9iji.. glad to know.. a7ibkum kilekum.. inshalla Allah ysma3 minich.. thank u ya akyat Lilo intay! ;*
Awh, you shouldn't feel bad about the way you feel.
Let everything out cause all of us are more than willing to help you through it all :)
Don't keep things in, it never helps. Telling the truth is so much harder but in the end it's also worth it. Maybe you should try and get your friends to understand and if they don't, you still have blogsphere! ;p
I'm the type of person who would trust people I have just met more than my lifelong friends but I think it's because people I've just met have nothing to judge me by whereas people I know do!
Okay that's all I have to say, well I could go on but I won't :P
Hope you feel better :*
Post soon,
xx
aww sweetie.. well i totally agree with everything u said.. i know that keeping things in never really helps.. bs i guess im just wired that way.. i find it so hard to spill the contents of my heart.. 9ij 9ij ma3arf.. i swear i try to talk sa3at bs ili no words wud come out.. ma3arf.. writing is much easier... and tara i think its always easier to talk to ppl uve just met than ppl uve know for like.. ever.. haha.. fa afham ili tgooleena..
thank u so much for ur support luv.. thank u thank uuu thank u.. and inshalla will post soon ;**
Aww (L)
Beautifully written & Most beautifully posted !
Do not apologize of what you are feeling,, i love your thoughts and your words r so touching, it reached my heart !!
Please dont stop nor think of changing your posts, it's hard to confess your sorrow but it helps to heal the heart ^^
7ayati thank uu! thank u thank u thank u! inty il beautiful! well ofcourse u r, bella ;) im really glad u liked my posts.. it feels so good to have more and more ppl read and like my blog.. ur so sweeet!! and ur right.. it duz help.. since im not good in talking about it atleast il write about it! i guess i have to let things out one way or the other.. thank u lovely ;*
OMG <3 is this a story or your real-life sorry! sometimes I need updates to reality!
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hehehehehehe.. hmmmm.. what do u think?
so this is for real ? ur stoory is real ? its heartbreaking ,, i wana drive all the way to bahrain and give u a Hug:* .. kamle ur stoory us readers might help u sweetie ;*
hahaha 7ayaatiii 7adich cuute wallaaaa!! 7ayaaaach il bahrain kileha ta7t 2amrich ya galby ;* i think i need a hug too.. hmmm.. i guess ill go write now a6ale3 7arity? inshalla luv, will do ;*
aww 7beebty ;* and seriously tara i love bahrain , i'm there almost every weekend ;p so if u need anything just let me know sweetie ;*
and yallaa 6l3ee 7rteeek,inshalla today bs arj3 at night alga a new post ;p lol
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